The Lab

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nobody@vox.com(Rosebud Sonofram) — Tue, 04 Aug 2009 05:29:48 -0700

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MY GRANDFATHER AND ALBERT EINSTEIN

is it a coincidence that man I have to love ? no! coincidence can be explained by it's own nature.

Girl: Daddy, I’ll be out tonight. I’ll be back but late. Deduction. You know!

Dad: A moment that is as short as individible is called ‘a moment’. You come back a moment before that.

Girl: If time interval could be reduced to infinite, everything would be resolved of our own accord. So you want me back before that moment, is that right? Like forever!

Unfortunately, imagination of infinite, brings heavy logical conflicts along with it.

Dad: It’s better than being left at the street forever. Especially when we limit ourselves with literal meanings of numbers (such as noon 12), nothing makes eternity. Besides, every moment that forms time is the same with the other one. You won’t go at noon either. Your grandfather and Albert Einstein formed basic stones of physics with this kind of unchangeable principles and they grounded ways of thinking on ‘no moment that takes place in extent time is special’.

So the girl enters the kitchen. Her mother and brother are there:

Girl: Mom, nature is dominated by coincidences at the smallest extent time unit. Let me out at least for an hour. I believe that the man I love will be there and I trust my instincts.

Mom: Everything that is regular can be seen in a wide perspective. Where are you up to, at meal time? Set the table. We can begin to eat. Deduction…

Girl: What will we eat? Pine cone?

Son: Chaotic behaviour is dependent on deterministic laws, but it also seem very irregular to an eye that isn’t used to those. Anyway… I will leave too, we can go together if you’d like to.

Mom: If you’ll go to the same place, all right then.

Girl: Will you follow my moves step by step? If someone was capable of analizing all forces that effects in nature and to identify the mutual situations of the elements that united them and someone capable to analize their greatness (gravity), in this same formula, along with the movement of the biggest substances of universe, the lightest atom’s and my movements would take place. Will you follow me step by step?

Mom: Everything would be within that identifying and realizing self’s knowledge, past would be just as clear as future to their eyes. You may begin with where you were yesterday, if you’d like to. And I don’t mind if you fall in love a little late. When you move from one time point to another, the point that belongs to them moves too, a moving point shapes a curve, and this curve is the representative projection of whole system’s future behaviour. We may see the important features of dynamics by observing this curve. For example, if the curve closes winding, it means that both populations are following a periodical revolution, repeating the same values continously.

Girl: Like a dance trend too?

Son: Discovery of chaos, brought a basic mistake into light regarding the way we perceive the relationship between these rules and the behaviour caused by these. They learned that I failed today. (to the sister) They’re a little tensed. Maybe I should be the driver. Not an industry engeneer.

Mom: Before it was thought that deterministic causes were supposed to create regular results; but today it is observed they may create too irregular results easily that can be interpreted as random chance. What car are you talking about? You both will be home tonight.

And mom mixes yogurt and water to make ayran and the moment she turns the mixer on, ayran is all over the place.

Mom: Please help me clean this mass.

Girl: Mixing is a chaotic process, only here at home. I think out these in the club, it is better and safe. You should see the bartenders.

Mom: Chaos, on the otherhand, also acknowledges us that things we see as randomness are results of simple laws.

Son: Chaos is not coincidental, it is based on behaviour that may appear to be coincidental but it really is a beahviour based on clear laws. Chaos is the code form of order.

Blinks implying that they may go.

Girl: A chaotic system, reacts to exterior events faster and with less effort compared to a system that is not chaotic: this is called chaotic controls.

She implies that they can go.

Dad (enters the kitchen) : Just keep silent…

Mom: Chaos shows that systems that are based on simple laws can act in a complicated manner to our surprise. Pull yourselves together. What is it under the smoke and all? Are you crazy? Aaaa!

Girl: Yes I am, I claim.

And she thanks God, she praises.

Son: You take care of the blackhole. That is easier…

Dad: Chaos theory is not a physics theory or mathematical induction in terms of its structure. It is a method that explains totaly the tendency of parts of physical reality. The shapes that smoke create in the air may seem as products of irregular and independent coincidences.

Mom: This way you act at home today is…

Girl: Fly butterfly! Why you need an effect?

Son: Chaos is development industry. I might want to graduate.

Girl: I have a test on chaos. Allright. So we stay.

Here are many important lessons for all of us.

The world can not be all chaotic but all probable versions of different effects is possible. Such as the differences that coincidental formulas don’t include. The problem gets more complicated with the first solar flair! Thanks to Ian Stewards ‘Nature’s Numbers’ book. I based this story on that, wishing all the best for all and the flow of acception. No doubt!

You didn’t miss a thing.

Next: A friend and a lover are two different things! Things of soul …

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Jane Doe's Suicide Post

nobody@vox.com(Susan Ee) — Mon, 16 Nov 2009 14:42:59 -0800

For the first time, I have heavily censored a post. I am strongly pro-1st Amendment, and it doesn't sit right with me to do this. But there is no resolution of this situation that is going to make anyone feel better, so I have decided to respect the wishes of my friend's family and redact the post I wrote about my reaction to my friend's suicide.

It’s taken me long hours to convince myself that this family member’s not-so-veiled threat of litigation over something in which s/he has no rights needs to be translated. This translation should read: “I am in unimaginable pain, and if you do this for me, there’s a chance that the pain might be a little more bearable for today.”

I have been telling myself that compassion for the living is more important than a memorial for the dead. That whatever it is I’m feeling is just a drop in the tsunami of tragic feelings her family is dealing with. Any unkind thing I say to them now will be carried for the rest of their lives, and it can’t be taken back next week after I’ve cooled off. I keep telling myself this, but I still feel raw about it.

Per their request, I am removing almost every detail about her in my post, which makes the whole post quite ironic when read in context. Also at the family’s request, I am removing a heart-felt poem written by her which was posted in the comments section by someone who loved her. It is full of despair and beautifully touching. It is my understanding that this poem was published on the Internet. I firmly believe that a writer who publishes her poem would want it read, felt, and appreciated for as long as possible…

…which brings me right back to the mantra of “Compassion for the living is more important than a memorial for the dead, goddammit.”

Susan Ee
www.feraldream.com

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A Friend's Suicide

nobody@vox.com(Susan Ee) — Thu, 20 Aug 2009 13:44:09 -0700

I stopped posting to my blog when something shocking and personal happened, and I didn't know whether it was right to post it for the world to read or not. On the one hand, a woman cutting herself off from her friends and committing suicide in a rented attic seemed deeply private. On the other hand, no one knowing about her life and death just seemed wrong. It bothered me that no one would use the word “suicide” and that people suddenly only talked about her in a circular way, as if tacitly suggesting that she never existed.

I ended up not posting about it. But then I couldn't really pretend it didn't happen and post about happy events. Hence the long break from my blog.

She was a beautiful person and a beautiful writer.

[--EDIT NOTE: There used to be a paragraph here that described what she was like and my fond memories of her. But her family has requested that I delete it. Everything I deleted for them from the original post is indicated by --DELETED--. For ruminations on why I agreed and my feelings about this, see Jane Doe's Suicide Post--]

No one seems to know what happened. [-- DELETED--] had a brief memorial service for her but I heard that it turned into a discussion of people wondering what happened.

I did a search for her on the net. There's a mention of her publication in a respected literary magazine, and her name is listed as a volunteer on [--DELETED--]. And that's it. No obituary or any mention of her existence. It's sad to think that this is the most any of you will know about her. She was one of those special people worth knowing...

Susan Ee
www.feraldream.com

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Halfway to a manuscript

nobody@vox.com(Susan Ee) — Thu, 12 Nov 2009 13:03:20 -0800

This month is National Novel Writing Month (NaNoWriMo). The challenge is to write 50,000 words during the month of Nov. I dove in immediately after the World Fantasy Convention. The great people I met at the convention must have inspired me because I've been on fire since then. I'm writing at a record-breaking speed for me. Yesterday was my most productive day at 3,700 words. That's a long way from the 1,000 word glass ceiling I used to live under.

I'm off to LA tomorrow for a filmmaking seminar so I needed to meet my 25,000 word goal for Sunday by today. Good thing I'm deadline driven. I'm now at 25,349 words. Yay!

Now if I can just keep myself from being distracted by my lust for a new netbook, I'll have a very rough draft of a novel to work with by mid-Dec. I'm keeping my fingers crosssed.

Susan Ee
www.Tooth-Fairy-Movie.com
www.feraldream.com

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Heather's Book Blog

nobody@vox.com(Heather Kay) — Tue, 27 Oct 2009 17:36:56 -0700

Please visit my new blog at

www.RedWineAndVampires.com

all future posts will be located here!

This is a Book Blog focused on Paranormal Romance Novels. I am always look ing for a good book so your suggestions are most welcome.

Thank You -Heather

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Sookie Stackhouse, Anita Blake, Riley Jenson

nobody@vox.com(Heather Kay) — Thu, 16 Apr 2009 13:34:39 -0700

Sookie Stackhouse, Books 1-7

I have read what I consider the top three Vampire Romance/Mystery book series that are out there. My Vampire interest was recently acquired through the Twilight series by Stephanie Meyer, however I searched for a more adult approach on the subject matter and this is what I recommend.

Sookie Stackhouse (The Southern Vampire Mysteries) by Charlaine Harris. There are currently 8 books in the series with the next book due out in May. I read these books before HBO picked up the series True Blood which is based on them. I find the show to be slow, but that is probably because I am years down the road in Sookie Stackhouse's life. (and you can never really fully adapt a book to the screen you just miss all of the characters thoughts and feelings)

The series takes place in Louisiana and is about Sookie who is telepathic, works in a bar, lives with her grandmother, and does not have luck with men. Through recent laws passed vampires are now legal citizens. This has changed life in the small town of Bon Temps. The town is very racist to the newly revealed vampires. Bill the vampire moves in next door to her and she discovers that she cant hear his thoughts or the thoughts of any other vampire. Bill becomes her boyfriend and with that relationship she goes deep into the vampire community and catches the eye of many other vampires.

The series includes Shape Shifters, Ware Animals, Witches, Fairies and few other magical creatures that make this world very interesting and unpredictable. There is a string of different love interest throughout the series that will have you wanting more. There is also always someone who is trying to get Sookie killed or put in danger the ones she loves. I recommend this series as an introduction to the Vampire Romance/Mystery category.

Full Moon Rising (Riley Jensen, Guardian, Book 1)

The next series I recommend is Riley Jensen (Guardian Series) by Keri Arthur. I have read 6 of the 7 books in the series and I intend to complete the 7th in the next few days. The next installment in the series is due out in October. This series is about Riley Jenson half Vampire half Werewolf. This series dives more into the

werewolf side of things that is lacking from the other series. It follow her and her job which starts off as an office worker it the Directorate of Other Races but it evolves into the Guardian job that her boss keeps steering her towards.

Riley's twin brother is kidnapped and with a naked Vampire who has amnesia that is on her doorstep she sets out to find her brother. These books have a lot of fight scenes that are very visual, it is real easy to hold your breath through a few pages before you realize you are even doing it.

Riley goes through a string of conflicted lovers and relationships that leaves you as a reader unable to decide who to pull for. The nonstop action makes these books a very fast read. This series takes you deep into an unknown world that you could never imagine existed. I recommend this book if you are looking for a good Vampire Romance/Mystery with a window into the world or Werewolves.

Guilty Pleasures (Anita Blake, Vampire Hunter: Book 1)

The final and my favorite of the three series is the Anita Blake (Vampire Hunter) by Laurell K Hamilton. I have read 15 of the 16 books in the series (I cant seem to find a copy of Blood Noir anywhere and had to place a special order that is taking forever to come in) The 17th in the series is due out in June.

This series is about Anita Blake who is a necromancer (someone who raises zombies) by day and a legal vampire hunter by night. She is known in the vampire world as The Executioner because of her high kill count. Anita also a part of the Regional Preternatural Investigation Team RPIT which is the department of the police that deals in all crimes involving a monster of sorts.

Anita is torn between relationships and and her own moral hang-ups. This series goes deep into the Vampire and Werewolf community and a few other things that seen to fit right into this world of mayhem. Hamilton has done a really good job with describing this world so that you can imagine everything that Anita is experiencing. You also get to learn about weapons, which was never really my thing but it is put out there in such an interesting way that you can't help but want more.

This series is never dull for even a moment, you are constantly taken from one thing to the next without any time to breathing. There is also such a long list of characters that you never get bored with the same personalities.

I highly recommend this series to anyone who is interested in the Vampire Romance/Mystery. One of the best things about it is the amount of books in the series. I read very fast reader and I was on this series of books for awhile and never got bored. I cant wait for the next book in the line up.

Any book suggestions or comments please let me know!

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Dead and Gone (Sookie Stackhouse Book 9) by Charlaine Harris

nobody@vox.com(Heather Kay) — Sun, 17 May 2009 16:18:04 -0700

Dead and Gone (Sookie Stackhouse, Book 9)

SPOILER ALERT!!! I read this book in only one day! I had forgotten how just how intense Sookie Stackhouse's world was. This book was non stop action from the start. Here is the description from the back of the book.

Except for Sookie Stackhouse, folks in Bon Temps, Louisiana, know little about vamps—and nothing about weres.

Until now. The weres and shifters have finally decided to reveal their existence to the ordinary world. At first all goes well. Then the mutilated body of a were-panther is found near the bar where Sookie works—and she feels compelled to discover who, human or otherwise, did it.

But there’s a far greater danger threatening Bon Temps. A race of unhuman beings—older, more powerful, and more secretive than vampires or werewolves—is preparing for war. And Sookie finds herself an all-too human pawn in their battle.

Here is the real deal. The book starts with the Weres coming out to the world. Sam shifted in the bar to show everyone that he was really a shapeshifter. Not everyone took the news so well and Sam's stepfather shot his mother when she told him her secret. Sam had to immediately leave to be by her side in Texas and he left Sookie in charge of the bar.

Sookie was approached by Eric's daytime guy with a request for Sookie to meet with Eric at Fangtasia. He also gave her something wrapped in velvet and said that Eric requested that she gives it to him in front of his guest, which happened to be the new Vampire King of Louisiana. When Sookie arrives at the bar and hands Eric the wrapped gift he opens it and it is the small knife that was used in vampire weddings. This meant that Sookie belonged to Eric and they were married in the vampire community. This protected Sookie because the King of Louisiana was there to request Sookies presence with him to gather information, and because Quinn requested to see Sookie. Sookie was outraged by Eric's trick but their blood tie made it her for her to stay mad.

Sookie Returns to Bon Temps the next morning the FBI at her door questioning her about the explosion and wanted to know how she was able to find the survivors and who was the boy that assisted her. During their questioning Sookie receives a call that Crystal, Jason's pregnant wife was crucified outside of Merlots Bar. The FBI agents thought it might be a hate crime and they tagged along with Sookie to the bar.

Sookie is also visited by her great grandfather Niall the Fairy. He tells Sookie that she may be in danger because of a fray war that was forming and his enemy was trying to kill and his bloodline. Sure enough a Fairy shown up to kill Sookie but she is gardening and happened to have an iron tool in her hands and killed the Fairy.

Sookie also has another surprise visitor that was Quinn. Bill sees Sookie and Quinn arguing outside and comes over to protect Sookie. I turns in to a fight and ends with Sookie getting knocked out. When she wakes up Eric is in bed with her and she knows he gave her his blood to help her recover. Sookie gets the courage to ask Eric if he really remembers the time they spent together when he was under a spell and he tells her that he remembers every second. He also told her that part of the spell was that he would be close to his hearts desire, and that was why he was running down Sookie's road. And he offers for Sookie to quit her job and move into his house, but she refuses.

Arlene makes an attempt on Sookie's life and she is arrested along with her boyfriend. Sookie spots another fairy in the woods and is worried about her safety. She calls in a favor with the vampires and the werewolves she is sent Trey from the weres and Bubba from the vampires. Trey is poisoned Bubba is weakened, and Sookie is kidnapped by fairies. Sookie learns that Niall is from the Air fairies and Brendan is of the water fairies and they were responsible for the death of her parents.

She is tortured and knew she was going to die, but she wakes up in a hospital with Claudine. Eric arrives shortly and he said Brendan is on his way to destroy everyone. He gives Sookie a lot of his blood to get her strong enough for the fight. He then bring her into the room where Bill is receiving blood from Clancey in preparation for the fight. Bill tells Sookie that he will die fighting for her. Brendan and the Frey bust into the room and the fight begins. Of corse the vampires win the fight. Pam comes and picks up everyone and returns them home.

Niall the only remanding prince decides to close the off the fray world and remove all contact with the humans for the humans safety. He goes to tell Sookie bye and when he is leaving he says that the vampire really loves her but he leaves before she could think to ask which vampire.

Here is chapter one from Charlene Harris's website, enjoy!

Dead and Gone Chapter One

Book 3 of 50 in the 365 Challenge!

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Halfway to the Grave (Night Huntress Book 1) by Jeaniene Frost

nobody@vox.com(Heather Kay) — Sun, 24 May 2009 15:20:14 -0700

Halfway to the Grave (Night Huntress, Book 1)

SPOILER ALERT!!! So I just finished Halfway to the Grave by Jeaniene Frost. This book was a super fast read I finished it in one day, its action packed, has a nice little romance story and its keeps you wanting more. Its also fun because it is set in todays world and vampires are still in hiding. Here is the Blurb from the back of the book.

Half-vampire Catherine Crawfield is going after the undead with a vengeance, hoping that one of these deadbeats is her father—the one responsible for ruining her mother's life. Then she's captured by Bones, a vampire bounty hunter, and is forced into an unholy partnership.

In exchange for finding her father, Cat agrees to train with the sexy night stalker until her battle reflexes are as sharp as his fangs. She's amazed she doesn't end up as his dinner—are there actually good vampires? Pretty soon Bones will have her convinced that being half-dead doesn't have to be all bad. But before she can enjoy her newfound status as kick-ass demon hunter, Cat and Bones are pursued by a group of killers. Now Cat will have to choose a side . . . and Bones is turning out to be as tempting as any man with a heartbeat.

Ok so Cat is a half vampire because her mother was raped by a newly made vampire and becomes pregnant with her. As a result of this her mother has a hatred to vampires and insist that Cat kill as many as she can find because they are all murderous monsters. Cat goes out to clubs and lets vampires hit on her and leaves the bar with them, when they make their move to drain her she kills them.

This leads to her meeting Bones, a master vampire hit man, who notices Cat and her little mission. He kidnaps her because he thinks she it working for the man that he has been tracking to kill. When he discovers that she is something different and realizes her potential gives her a choice of death or partnership in his mission. Cat accepts because she knows that it is her only chance to live.

Bones trains cat for weeks and they set out with Cat as bait to catch bad vampires with Bones waiting to question them before they kill them. Bones is trying to get to Hennessy a vampire who is selling young human girls to vampires for considerable amounts of money. He has been searching for him for 11 years and intends to track him with information form the vampires they hunt down.

In this process Cat falls for Bones, who is already in love with her, but is fighting her feelings because she was brought up believing that all vampires are evil. Cat is also still scarred from her first serious relationship with a boy who left her as soon as she had sex with him. As Cat struggles with her feelings Bones tricks her into going out on a date with him and just as they are about to kiss Hennessy walks into the club. Cat lures Hennessy out of the club and her and Bones attempts to kill him but they fail.

They continue hunting vampires to get to Hennessy. In the process Cat decided she loves Bones and they start dating, but she lies to her mother and tells her that she is dating her human neighbor.

Hennessy's vampires find where Cat's family lives and they kill her grandparents and kidnap her mother in order to get Cat. Bones is busy killing Hennessy and Cat discovers that his partner is the governor, she goes straight to his house and kills him. The police show up and arrest her and the FBI comes in to take her into custody.

On the way there the FBI agent Don tells her they are in a new devision in paranormal investigation and wants to hire Cat to hunt rogue vampires because she is the only of her kind. She is offered a job new identity and a home for her and her mother each, for 10 years in the FBI and no contact with vampires. She agrees knowing that this is the only way she will not go to prison and the only way to save them form killing Bones. Bones shows up just after Cat agreed to their terms and is unaware of her plans. He stops the car that has Cat in it and gets Cat and her mother. They go to a place to hide so he can make arrangements for them to leave the country.

Cat has no intention on leaving with him because she knows the FBI will track them down and kill them, but she doesn't want to tell Bones because she knows he will talk her out of it. Bones leaves to take care of a few last minute plans and Cat leaves Bones a note breaking up with him.

Cat and her and her mother leave and go meet Don and his crew where she starts her new job and is in command of a new crew she must train. She doesn't stop thinking about Bones but she knows this is the only way he will be safe.

Book 4 of 50 in 365 Challenge!

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Midnight Sun (Twilight Series, Edwards Version) by Stephenie Meyer

nobody@vox.com(Heather Kay) — Sun, 07 Jun 2009 11:50:06 -0700

The Twilight Saga Collection

So Midnight Sun is Twilight form Edwards point of view. As you may know Stephenie Meyer was in the process of writing this book when it was illigally posted on the internet. She was so upset by this that she has stopped writing the book but has put the partial daft on her website.

I liked this installment better than Bella's version of the story. However that may only be because I have read the story from Bella's point of view and this fills in all of the blanks. And I really like that we get to hear everyones thoughts as Edward hears them. The incomplete draft has left me wanting more, I really hope Myers finishes the book,

Here is the link to Midnight Sun on Stephenie Myers website. Have Fun!

Midnight Sun: Edwards Version of Twilight by Stephenie Myer

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Destined for an Early Grave (Night Huntress Book 4) by Jeaniene Frost

nobody@vox.com(Heather Kay) — Tue, 07 Jul 2009 18:22:31 -0700

The fourth installment of the Night Huntress Series will be released on July 28. Here is a promo clip from Jeaniene Frosts website.

Destined for an Early Grave Jeaniene Frost Book Trailer

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